i love me.

you know, i never really realized how strong of a word "help" was. &it's hard to take the meanin' of it out of context. but in regards to my last blog, i didn't mean for it to sound so much as a cry for help but more of a calling for motivation &inspiration...

after a few texts &comments today i've realized i may have worried a few, definitely unintentionally. but they're just thoughts that have been aching my brain &let loose a lot of strain after bloggin' about it. &it's apparent that this is my page to review &preview my thoughts &actions, to learn from myself not necessarily share myself. but i greatly appreciate those concerned &to be a honest, am little embarrassed by the words i used that have possibly worried you.

to change the mood a bit, i find it quite humorous that i pretty much summed up my life in a nutshell by just one paragraph in my last entry. i'm a very complex, confusing &complicated person so i don't expect anyone to understand what i meant in my last blog or any of them actually... i don't mean to sound so down &out or a victim of anything, i'm just self aware &well aware of my thoughts &enjoy takin' the time out on my blog to show a deeper side of myself.

because as much as i'd love to be... i'm not just the fun-loving, party hoppin', adventure seekin' person that my actions or photos portray of me. &well, i can go on forever about myself but i don't wanna' drag. after all, this page is dedicated to just me! ;D