SERENDIPITY.

-SERENDIPITY, it's one of my favorite words.
-it is, why?
-it's just such a nice sound for what it means. a fortunate accident. except, i don't really believe in accidents. i think fate's behind everything.
-oh, you do...
-yeah.
-fate's behind everything?!
-i think so...
-everything's predestined? we don't have any choice at all?
-no, i think we make our own decisions... i just think that fate sends us little signs &it's how we read the signs that determines whether we're happy or not.
-little signals...?!
-yeah.
-fortunate accidents, lucky discoveries. like columbus &america?

one of my favorite scenes/conversations of the whole movie... that, &the elevator scene. &well, just the whole movie itself. who caaan't watch this movie over &over...

-what do you miss most about mother england?
-i miss my mom, terribly.
-if i were her, i'd miss you too.
(lol... suuuch i line!)

monster MAILI!

...&knocked me on my face.

CURRENTLY FEELIN' &LOVIN'...


"...not again.
oh, this ain't supposed to happen to me.

keep rockin' &keep knockin'.
whether you louis vuitton it up or reebokin'.
you see the hate that they're servin' on a platter,
so what we gon' have dessert or disaster?

i never thought i'd be in love like this.
when i look at you my mind goes on a trip.
&you came in... &knocked me on my face.
feels like i'm in a race, but i've already won first place.
i never thought i'd fall for you as hard as i did.
you got me thinkin' about our life, our house, &kids.
every mornin'... i look at you &smile.
'cause boy you came around... &you knocked me down.

(chorus) sometimes love... comes, around.
&it knocks you down,
just get back up when it knocks you down.
sometimes love... comes, around.
&it knocks you down,
just get back up when it knocks you down.

i never thought i'd, hear myself say...
ya'll gon' hate, i think i'm gonna' kick it with my girl today.
i used to be commander in chief of my pimp ship flyin' high...
til' i met this pretty little missile, that shot me out the sky.
hey, good to know i'm crashin'... don't know how it happened.
but i know it feels, so damn good.
said if i could go back &make it happen faster,
don't you know i would, baby if i could.
miss independent... to the fullest.
but no, never too much.
she helpin' me pull it.
she shot the bullet, that ended that life.
i swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight, girl...

(chorus)

tell me now can you make it past your caspers?...
so we can finally fly off into NASA?
you was always the cheerleader of my dreams.
to seem, to only date the head of football teams.
&i was the class clown that always kept you laughin'.
we, were never meant to be baby we just happened.
so please, don't mess up the trick... hey young world i'm the new slick rick.
they say, i move too quick but we can't let the moment pass us.
let the hourglass pass right into ashes.
let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses.
so i wrote this love letter right before my classes.
i coulda' got his ass, someone that's only average.
for advice, O.M.G. you listen to that bitch?
woe is me, baby this is tragic.
'cause we had it, we was magic.
i was flyin', now i'm crashin'.
this is bad, real bad, michael jackson...
now i'm mad, real mad, joe jackson...
you should leave your boyfriend now, i'ma ask him.

(chorus)"

"so you gotta' put the good with the bad, happy &the sad.
so you will bring a better future than i had, in the past...
oh 'cause... i don't wanna make the same mistakes, i did.
i don't wanna' fall back, on my face again.
i'll admit it, i was scared to answer love's call...
&if it hits, better make it worth the fall.

(chorus)

won't see it comin' when it happens, hey...
but when it happens you're gonna' feel it, let me tell you now.
you see when love knocks you down...
won't see it comin' when it happns...
but when it happens you're gonna' feel it, let me tell you now.
you see when love knocks you down..."

"the rebirth of my art." -A.W.

so the bf &i had a faaabulous time exploring the ANDY WARHOL exhibit in SF.

i'm so fortunate to have such an open minded bf, who puts his interests aside &actually enjoys tryin' new things. &at most times adopting those new interests. we all know he's not too creative or artsy (though it's so "cute" when he tries... i.e. his charcoal drawin' of me ;] lol.) but it's lovely to see his astonishment &amazement by the arts &crafts after assumin' it would be rather boring. well, we've been to many different independant/underground art shows, but of course, andy's was by far the best!

i lost track of boonce as his amazement by andy's work led him in different directions but i couldn't help but stare at each piece. unexpectedly it became a touching &emotional journey... actually, i really am just that sensitive. lol. but i've always been a fan of andy's avant-garde work &lifestyle. from middle school through high school i've admired his work which has in many ways assisted me in finding &drawing out my inspiration. from his books &short films, i always found myself relating to some of his many different philosophies. i just appreciate the deep, internal emotion behind the simplicity of his work.

all in all, it really made me miss the artistic side of myself. the "project" me. &i know it's mostly due to lack of inspiration &that's what saddens me. but at least it hasn't all left... 'cause i'm always, constantly takin' photos &i stay naturally focused on the fashion scene ;) i guess all the materialized part of myself is the andy in me, lol. &well, hopefully this will be "the rebirth of my art"...

easter weekend.

w/DACO's @dNb's...

raspberry kamikazies xD

&fruity pebbles :)

followed by... patron shots :X

for starters... tokyo teas &purple hooters ;)

MAD5 reunited.

hula halau 'o nalua otea api.

boy do i have a lot on my mind... but at this time may fail to blog all of my thoughts.
i've recently got back into tahitian! doin' what i do best, shakin' my ass! ;D it was so great to see all my halau ohana &be able to dance side by side with them again. but man... was i bent out of shape. even with hittin' the gym a lot lately, my knees were completely unprepared for that workout. my knees swelled up long before i had a moment to catch my breathe. but at least i kept my stamina goin'! &that's what i was really afraid of losing... it feels wornderful bein' back! &hopefully i can keep at it.
on another note; my emotions have been running recklessly lately &it's not even that time of month ;X lol. with the whole sandra cantu story, my baby sister's curiosity for big kid subjects &just everything goin' on right now.

well, i've been reminiscing alot to some old 2004 &2005 playlists. &nonetheless, it's been keepin' me rather sane :)

SANDRA CANTU

prayers, blessings &deepest condolences go out to the family of sandra cantu &residences of tracy in hopes that they find the bastard(s) that committed such a horrific crime....


go to: http://abclocal.go.com/kgo/story?section=news/local/east_bay&id=6747604